30 of 90

    You may have noticed I have posted 1/3 of our 90 day study and they are not coming in daily. Two reasons: I try to complete my personal study first and some days that is all I manage to get done. Secondly, the topics have been a little more challenging than I expected. I have spent several days praying over some of the topics before I can manage to type up a post. I hope you are finding the breaks acceptable and taking advantage of those times to catch up on any of the study you have missed. Hopefully the more laid back approach is also helpful for those joining the study late.
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Day Thirty: How Do I Know I Can Trust You?

Hearing Whispers In the Rain

     There is nothing more frustrating than hearing, "I'm sorry," and then having the same infraction repeated over and over again. How many times do you respond, "You're forgiven," and trust that person not to hurt you again in the same way? Maybe the first time, maybe even the second time but by the third time you are probably starting to wonder if you can trust them. After awhile you are probably questioning the very sincerity of thier apology. Ever felt like someone was just playing a game with you and the apology was just to save themselves the pain of suffering the consequences of their actions.
    It took a few  years of raising four kids to realize that letting a child off the hook for infractions because they were good at apologizing was not enough. One day I lined them up and explained, "if there is an infraction someone will pay the consequence. I will do my best to pick the guilty party, sometimes I may not be right but no infraction will go unpaid." It was amazing how quickly things turned around. An apology without an action to make up for it is empty. No empty apologies accepted, thanks anyway.
    "Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel (Phil 1:27)."
    It is difficult to "contend as one" when you don't trust the one you are contending with. Do you know others who claim to be Christians but you find it difficult to 'stand firm together with them in one spirit'? Do you ask yourself, "How do I know I can trust you?" I can imagine that John had a real difficult time believing Paul was a  true Christian. Paul, as Saul before his conversion, murdered Christians and now he claimed to be one. If it was me, I'd have a hard time not thinking Paul was a hypocrite just trying to get into the inner circle of disciples to kill them.
   To stand in one spirit, do you have to trust the spirit you are standing with? How do you know you can trust another's spirit? This is obviously a question of the ages. Ultimately our trust is not in man but in God alone, however, we are called to be discerning and to hold believers accountable. As an apology without action is shallow and empty, so is a spirit without fruit. You are called to be discerning without being judgemental. That is done by examing "the fruit of the spirit that is love, joy, patience, faithfulness, goodness, kindness, gentleness, peace, and self-control."
   When John was called to stand one in spirit with Paul, how could he have known that Paul was not a hypocrite trying to get close to the disciples to harm them? I hope we will explore more about this as we study John's reaction to Paul's testimony but my current thoughts are that he would examine the fruit of Paul's newly confessed faith. Is there evidence of the fruit of the spirit since his claim of conversion?
    What would an examination of your claims of faith reveal?

Day Twenty-Nine: No! No! No!

     "The awesomeness of God's answerless presence." I love this line Beth uses to help us understand the times when God acts differently than we expect or had hoped. Maybe someone you love died of an illness you'd been praying for God to heal, maybe you learn of another war, or see images of a town devasted by a natural disaster. Why is God allowing such things to happen in the world? Sometimes we just don't have the answers.

You knit me together
in my mother's womb

     When I first became a born-again Christian, I sought after God intellectually. I did discover some amazing scientific facts that supported the claims for Christ and even many events that the bible shares. I took a course called the Alpha course which ran scripture proofs though the tests of time. If you every wonder about the proofs for scripture read, "The Case for Christ" written by an atheist attorney whose attempt to prove his own beliefs convinced himself Jesus was the Messiah.

     I was excited that God was willing to show me all the proof I needed that Jesus was the Risen One before I made any committment to follow. 

However, it was the unanswered question that sealed the deal. After Columbine I was angry at God for Rachel's tears. I didn't know Jesus and I wasn't too thrilled with hanging out in church if this was how God treated believers. When evening worship didn't answer my questions about the tragedy at Columbine, I decided to wash my hands of it and got up to walk out. My husband followed me to the lobby and said, "Do you want to get dessert somewhere?" 

     Yea," I replied, "there is nothing left for me here." 

     I stopped at the front doors and peered out into the parking and God's presence engulfed me and I couldn't leave.

     "Or did  you want to go back in?" my husband asked. "I'll take you to Perkins or we can back in whatever you want to do." 

You are my portion, everything
I need is in You



   Angrily I turned away from the doors, brushing past him, I said, "I can't leave." God had given me a choice that night, with him or without him. I got no answers about Columbine other than the knowing that God was sovereign and even though I couldn't intellectualize what was going on in his allowing that tradegy, He did. God didn't cause the tradegy, he just didn't stop it for reasons beyond our comprehension. But He knew the hurts and tears and thoughts of every person that tragedy involved or touched through it. The Holy Spirit greived with us. 

   It is during these times, when God offers no answers that we can sometimes feel his Presence the most. I saw the wonderful testimonies that Rachel's tears did to restore the faith of many of our youth just like Rachel had said she was called to do in her notebook. Like Beth Moore so eloquently put it, in the end "we crave far more than explanations the unshakable conviciton that He is utterly, supremely God."

Day Twenty-Eight: Do I know you?



For You are our Peace

        Christians are often stereotyped with the idea that if you do not believe the same as them then they want to send you to hell. This may have started with the idea that James and John presented to Jesus about the Samarians. They wanted to call fire down from heaven due to a small infraction. But Jesus had other plans, he arranged for John to be an ambassador to the Samarians. And this is the part that non-beleivers don't understand about Christians: we are being tested in our faith and God is leading us to overcome our prejudices and love the people he loves especially those that could easily be our enemies.
      As a Christian, it is easy to walk our your faith among those who agree with you, but walking out your faith among those who don't believe is a bit more of a challenge. Walking out your faith among those who want to challenge your faith or even attack you for your faith, that is what Christians are called to do. Not to convert others, that is the work of the Holy Spirit, but rather to grow you in your faith and discipleship and go our and share God's love through Christ.
     It doesn't take long to know who shares your faith and who doesn't, even among those who claim to be Christians but don't back up their beliefs with their actions. Not saying that we all back up our claims with action 100% of the time. However, some say they believe Christ died for them but clearly their lives do not show any signs of change. You can't have the indwelling of the Holy Spirit without seeing some kind of change from your unbeleiving life. It is a constant journey to grow in your faith and become more like Christ in every part of your life. If nothing is changing, then it begs the question of who or what you are following.
     Relationships and relations are some of the most difficult challenges God gives us. How do we deal with people who don't think like us? Who don't believe what we beleive? And even those who attack the beliefs we hold most precious? Curiously those who don't beleive in Jesus have the same questions. Why do you think the topic of tolerance comes up over and over and over? Its like the world is shouting out "Why can't we all just get along? Why can't we all just have it our own way?" The answer is simple no matter what you believe: You can't beleive you are right and at the same time beleive someone who believe some thing that contradicts with that is right, too. But you can appreciate their search for the truth and believe in the promises of Christ who says, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. Seek me and  you will find me." That promise is for everyone no matter what they believe right now!

Day Twenty-Seven: Muzzles into Megaphones



Offer the Living Water

      I often think back on the time when my daughter brought back a children's picture bible from the playground in our apartment complex. She was so excited that a group was meeting there and they gave her a free book. I on the other hand was upset that someone was trying to indoctrinate my daughter into their religious beliefs without my permission. What was I afraid of? Looking back I think I was more afraid of not knowing, whole heartedly what I truly believed so that I could pass it along to her.
      The day I became assured of my faith I was no longer afraid of the beliefs of others. No longer was it my belief I was proselytizing but now it was the Truth I was walking out. Interesting that our passage reading for today talks both about the indwelling of the Holy Spirit and about preaching the good news. How do you know when to keep quiet and when to share your testimony without the prompting of the Holy Spirit?
     Have you ever called someone up and never gotten a chance to tell them why you called? Maybe they are so excited to hear your voice that they begin sharing their own good news with you and forget you called them. You wait for a good moment to "change the subject" but the opportunity never comes. You don't want to interupt so you just listen. Eventually you get a break, "I almost forgot the reason I called was..."
     Sharing the good news is not about preaching but rather sharing what you believe to be true. People do this all day. I listen to what people beleive all day. So there is usually an opportunity to at least throw in my two cents worth of what I beleive. I know it's worth a lot more than two cents but I don't often get more than a few sound bites. I love it when those sound bites come inspired by the Holy Spirit.
    When you share your testimony about Christ you may get a few questions thrown at you? Some questions  are genuine questions but others are only meant to trip you up in an attempt to make you look foolish for what you believe. Other responses may be more aggressive such as harrassment or chastisement.
    It is amazing that the same patterns of Christian persecution keep coming back around. Interesting when almost every other religion is tolerated but there appears to be an intolerance for the Christian faith. What are they afraid of? When it seems doors are closing and people are careful when and how to share their faith, God opens doors of opportunity to reach out to the hurting with testimonies of your faith. Even in countries where Christians are being killed for their beleif in Christ, God is opening doors of opportunity to reach out to the lost who need him.
   Do you feel like you can practice your faith fully unafraid of persecution?  Has God used that to open up doors of opportunity for you to share your faith with others?

Day Twenty-Six: Beggars in Beautiful Places

Where morning dawns and evening fades,
you call forth Songs of Joy!

    As the sun rose over the lake, I stood with my three preschool children and meditated on its beauty. It was an extremely spiritual moment. We had come to witness the first rays of the summer solstice. As I practiced the rituals of my new age religion, my words thanked Father Sky and Mother Earth for their beauty but my heart felt no reply. The moment was filled with wonder and beauty but no personal connection.
     The day I stepped under a fourth of July tent and accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour, everything seemed to came together. The beauty of God's creation embraced the beginning of a personal relationship with Christ. I was on top of the world until the bottom dropped out.
     At some point after my husband's death I was tired of grieving. I longed to set down the burden of this sorrow even though it kept rearing its ugly head at every turn. One morning, I was sitting on my father-in-law's deck in sunny California reading my bible as the sun came up over his property. The birds were singing in the background and I opened my bible to Psalm 65:8; "Where morning dawns and evening fades you call forth songs of joy!" I truly felt a rush of joy in God's sunrise, something I had known before I knew Christ, and the words from this scripture amplified the birds welcoming the new day with their songs of joy. That night as we sat out on the deck and watched the sun go down the crickets were singing their own songs. Their joyful melody reminded me of my morning scripture and it was at the point I realized that no matter what I had to face in the middle of the day there were two anchor points in every day that God promised to bring forth songs of joy. I made decision at that moment not to miss any of them!
     This teaching reminds me of the joy that I had in my old ways searching for a connection with nature. It's God's creation so no wonder our souls are drawn to it. How pleasing to realize that God doesn't expect us to turn away from the joy we found in our places of peace and joy that he gave us when we were lost to him. But how much greater peace and joy those places will bring when we go there with Him. Thank you Jesus!
     This chapter in Beth Moore's study is jam packed with way too much to cover in one blog post. She not only covered the joy of bringing our heritage with us but also understanding the true freedom in religion, giving what we have to others, and how we respond to those in need. You may want to take more than one day to let this chapter soak in.

Day Twenty-Five: Spiritual Connections

Leap of Faith

     My thirteen year old was explaining the art of asking a girl out to me. He said, "It's a leap of faith, mom. They might say, "yes," but there is a chance they will say, "no." But if you don't take that leap of faith you never know the answer." I feel your pain son. Being newly single in my forties was not comfortable. It's just not as simple as it was in my early twenties when most of the men in my peer group were single and still looking. Now the men are older, most are married, and few of those are even intersted in women their own age. I think the leap required is much wider than it used to be and a lot farther to fall.
     There is more evidence and historical records to back up the claims of the bible than there is to tell if someone is interested in you before you take the leap and ask them out. Though God always requires a leap of faith I don't beleive he wants us to jump without evidence. The evidence supports Christ claims of who he is but putting our faith in him requires a leap. You've probably heard the analogy of the wheel barrel across the grand canyon. It's one thing to believe the guy can push it across on the tight rope and another to jump in and ride in the wheel barrel while he does it. No matter how many times you've seen it done; jumping in takes a leap of faith.
     I hope you are following along in Beth Moore's study. This chapter is full of the evidences and a wonderful comparison of the old testament festivals to the life and sacrifice of Christ fulfilled in the new testament. We are are in the midst of God's sovereign will and timing no matter what we beleive.
    Before I was a beleiver, a co-worker was sharing his belief in Christ with me as I smiled and thought "Man, he is really convinced of this stuff." I so wanted a faith I could be sure of like his and for several more years kept searching. I always felt like I was almost there... each new discovery was almost the full truth.
     When I got saved, several years later, I realized what was missing in all my previous searching, "It was a leap of faith in God as my saviour." All I thought I needed was to know more facts and the truth of the world would soon become evident and I believed I could find it all if I kept searching. The day I realized I didn't need to and couldn't possibly know everything, I realized all  I did need was to be rescued from a fallen world. That was the day I found what I was looking for, "a faith with conviction",  like my co-worker I had found "the way, the truth, and the life."

Day Twenty-Four: Coming and Going

Do you see what I see?

    "Do you see what I see?" is a game my son and I often play. Staring into the clouds we name the shapes we see. "Do you see the alligator?" "Do you see the elephant?" "Do you see the sail boat?" The object of the game  is to find what the other person saw before it disappears or changes shape. It's amazing how the clouds form and change their shape and disappear without a trace.

     One day we will look up into the sky and ask, "Do you see Jesus?" "Then "everyone will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds with great power and glory (Mark 13:26)."  Just as he went up, in accordance with Acts 1:11, 'in the same way that they have seen Him going into heaven' he will return. The disciples got the honor of watching his ascension into heaven. They saw him walking and talking after his death. If that wasn't enough, they got to stand with him as he lifted off and floated up into the clouds disappearing into heaven. Christ will return in the same way he left, riding on the clouds.

Why do you stand looking up into heaven?

     Are you looking up into heaven with a great expectation of his return as he promised? Are you living as if at any given moment you will look up in the sky and see Jesus returning? No one knows the day or the time a thief will call on your home or your car but more than likely you lock your doors every time you leave them. No one knows the day or time Jesus will return but we know where. Every time you walk out the door, do you look up to the clouds with great expectations? One day "everyone will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds with great power and glory."

     Do you see the alligator? Do you see the sail boat? Do you see the Son of Man?

Day Twenty-Three: Love Goes Around

Love Knows No Bounds

      When my first son was born, I fell madly in love. They put that baby in my arms and my heart felt a love I had never experienced before. Over the next two years my husband and I built a life around this baby and our passion in life was to watch as he experienced every new milestone. From his first giggle to his first step to his first fall in the snow, we were so in tune and in love we followed him everywhere to make sure we didn't miss anything. We were infatuated.
     Before my second child was born I was worried I wouldn't be able to love another baby the way I loved my first born. However, the day they placed her in my arms I realized a thing or two about love. Love expands a heart, it does not divide it. Have you ever noticed a person when they fall in love? Their whole world brightens up and  they seem to fall in love with everyone around them. Love expands.
    When you love someone you do things you would not normally do. I would never have raised my voice to an Air Force Captain, reached across the desk of a government official, or wrote a three page letter to a school principal, if not for the love of a child. I would have never sat in 106 degree heat to watch a ball game, stayed up all night watching the front door, or slept cramped in a chair while eight months pregnant, if not for the love of a child. If not for love, I would have never ran without thinking through a barb-wire fence, delivered a breech puppy, or touched a tick.
    There are many things we would never think of doing that we would do without thinking for the love of a child or a beloved pet. What would you do for the love of Jesus?  Does your love for Christ expand your heart and overflow to others? If you are still compartmentalizing your love, then you may need to reaccess your motivation because action motivated by love is not contained by a box or rationed out in portions. Action motivated by love is unguarded, unrestrained, and unbounded.

Day Twenty-Two: Diving in the Deep End

Fling Wide Those Heavenly Gates

     The excitement of a new believer is probably one of the most misunderstood phenomenons among unbelievers than anything else they witness in born again Christians. To the new believer, the lights just came on and the doors to a new world have been flung open. It is so exciting you can't help but want to share that with everyone you meet. If you saw Jesus waiting at the bottom of a cliff, no doubt you wouldn't hesitate to jump. On lookers may think you've gone off the deep end because they don't see Jesus with open arms waiting to catch you.

     If you have been a Christian for awhile, what do you think when you see a mature Christian with a zealous spirit like Peter had when he saw Jesus and jumped in the lake to get to him. Are you excited for them or do you think they are acting foolish? As you grow closer to Jesus do you tend to jump in more or are you more guarded than a new believer?

    Not all new believers receive Christ with impetuousity, some of us came to Christ with a reserved spirit, letting the spirit gently lure our spirit to Christ. But there is that moment, when you want to shout "YES" and jump in without needing to test the water first. It is always a surprise when you realize you are in the air and there is no turning back! It's a sweet, sweet surprise when you realize you are filled with the Holy Spirit and no one can take that away from you.