Interesting that the last blog I posted on March 25, 2010 discussed getting wrapped up in our own little parts in the story that we forget about the big picture. And here it is the end of May and I had all but forgotten I was writing a story. If you have been following along with the Sacred Romance study and wondered what happened, that is exactly what happened. I apologize for getting trapped in my own little story.
I have been swamped at the ranch by the rain and dealing with a horse injury that has taken much of my time and even more of my emotions. Excited to start out this riding season with a new goal set for my horsey partner and I, it was quite the blow when she sustain a life-threatening injury. Through this healing process God has revealed things in my own heart that I didn't know were there. How did I let things, people, horses, work come between my relationship with him?
Yes, I constantly call on him in these situations: God please heal my horse; Lord help me understand this difficult person; and just the in general help me and I need pleas. These are the things that come out of ones small story.
There is a bigger story out there that these little peices of the story fit into. Searching for the way they fit is the blessing that comes from how God takes everything that is and weaves it into his story. The story of bringing his children home again. Mine was just time. Time needed to realize that I could do without all of this if God called me home right now. I could change courses in a moments notice if he called me to go a different direction. I want to use what God has given me for his bigger plan and not just for me but I don't want to cling to it so tightly I miss taking his hand and going into the big story with him.
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